do you ever feel like you were ment to be someone else or that you know what you want to be like but for some reason you cant.. its like this wall thats holding you back, and with every atempt you make the wall pushes you farther from your goal... well i can say i feel that way and you know what ive felt that way for the past 2 years .. yes it has been 2 years since i my first step into this shit hole known as lompoc... i came i made friends and then lost them now wether it was my fault or not i couldnt give a shit all i know is that im fucking sick and tired of wasting my time and life thinking about how to make things better when they dont even fuckin care.. im tired of doing everythign for one person.. i just cant wait till i leave i know its going to be in a while, once my dad gets back from iraq .. but man im counting the days.. counting the days were i can go back to being my self and having a great time with life going back to a place where poeple could care less about what you believe in or the way you look, back to were peolpe are real not this he said she said shit.. and i mean my dads in fuckin iraq and he understands me better then most people, for somone that i see like twice a year hes probably the closest person to me right now.. the whole time ive been here ive been trying to please everyone but me, its like my life isnt mine...
words of wisdom: waiting, wanting, never having what i should of had