the trouble with people is that no one is perfect. they can be really close but there is always that one thing that makes you think great...this is no good. but the more i think about it the more i say to myself why am i even expecting someone to be perfect when im not either. i can deal with one or two things, even more if i like the person enough. but even if things dont go my way im doing better, im actually going out, trying to have fun with people....iv never been so happy but at the same time iv never been so stressed. the stress i cause my self, filling my mind with what ifs, thats all i seem to do, i sit with a smile on my face for hours then it turns to doubt. i thought i was done with feeling i wasnt good enough for someone, i am, and people will one day understand. but as anyone who knows me well knows that i hate being ignored, it has to do with respect and just the thought that im not worth your time. if i knew people were busy well then cool i understand, im the queen of busy, but you know, say something... but back to the smiles, i like being able to smile during chemistry hehe, anything to take my mind off my crazy life
words of wisdom: i will never hurt you