I really don’t have much to write about but here is stuff that was on my mind a while age. You know it would be nice to have a journal that was full of great things not like mine but like ... Lestat's in Queen of the Damned. To have a life that interesting would be nice. To be a vampire would be even better, to be able to live forever and see what the world goes through while others die. Yes it would be lonely but I’m the type of person that wouldn’t be able to handle having more then 20 friends. Just one companion maybe two. But just one person to share everything with and have them feel the same way. Not have them worry about me gossiping or being disloyal. Having someone make sure they trust me. Putting me through tests, that’s no good. But then again if that one person is gone what would I do, where would I turn? I’m not ready to die. Death doesn’t scare me but I’m not inviting it. I want to live my life freely under my own rules, without worrying about what others do. Only then will I be able to die and not regret things in my life. Once I have lived for myself, on my own. Someone’s life is too precious and there isn’t enough time in the world to live your own and control someone else’s. There are people in my family who have yet to learn that