Damn Eric, that's some tough shit dude. I've known your family like my whole life practically, as you have pretty much known mine. We're like practically family, and this comes as a surprise to me as well. I wish you the best of luck man. That's some tough shit. I remember when i was suicidal in like middle school. Everyone hated me and i had no friends. I went home everyday and just thought of ways to kill myself. Poisen, slashing, gun shot, etc. The thing that held me back though was the though of not remembering anybody i loved or anything. I wouldn't remember my family or friends (not like i had any...) and i just didnt want to forget them. Man that was a shitty time. Sure i think about it once in a while, killing myslef, wondering if anyone would give a shit if i wasn't here or not. It's just a really hard thing that i hate dealing with. Life shouldn't be full of stupid shit like this. It's too fucking hard to deal with, and i'ts the last thing anybodyneeds, especially for kids in our age and time.
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