Love is a terrible word,
It only spells out disaster.
Sometimes it creeps up on you
Like death at your door;
Other times it surprises everyone.
Eagerly it awaits your reply
But what if you don’t want love?
What if you want it dead?
Love tears me apart,
Grinds me piece by piece.
It destroys my soul
Demolishes my every hope,
Annihilates my will to live.
Love sickens me, nauseates me
To the brink of destruction.
I cant stand it
I hate it,
I loath it.
Love… such a terrible word.

I would just like to say that people suck. not all people but most of them. I don’t understand how they can change so quickly one minnet they will be so cool the next they really start to piss you off. I’m not saying that "people" are always like that but there are some in particular that are. And another thing I hate the fact that I have to change for other people. . . I shouldn’t have to change the way I am just to make sure some one doesn’t get the wrong idea. you know some people may think that I am really flirty but I’m not that’s just the way I express my self I’m a very touchy feely type of person, but some people that dont really know me dont understand that. They just think that i flirt with everyone now im not saying that thats not entirly true.. there are some people that i flirt with but thats a different story. well lets see what else can i write about.. i have started to become friends with a few more people and finally eric and i have had more time to hang out which is good i was starting to miss doing stuff with him. other then that my life is pretty good thats about it bye


"Someday. you'll realize that life is pointless, and that you live a pointless existance and no one cares about you, and if your diluted into thinking someon is, or maybe if they really are, it doesn't matter anyway, you're just human number 184,564,789,448 in andless list of baby humans created by selfish lust of people who spent more of their life suffering than they ever did being content or happy. Then maybe you'll cry, and you'll probably want to die, but you won't, because you just won't care. That's when you loose your soul. That was yesterday."
This is a quote from some guy i met off the internet... and you know it does make a lot of sence see yah later

well my poor budy stephen tried to get a site up but he coulndt so yah...we are sitting here in ROP doing nothing like we always do . I like monkeys just in case any one wanted to know. I am mad at Andrew because he still hasnt given me a copy of his sonet it was really good. >=( ( see angry face) well i guess ill go
bye
ericka natalie michelle rodriguez

[10/28/2002 10:08:36 PM | ericka rodriguez]
well lets see i already had this great post but my stupid computer hates me and decided to freeze.. but anyway.. i was writting because ryan said i should post so here i am well i had started to write about the way my first year living in California has been. When i first got here i had just broken up with a boyfriend of two years. i figured i would start a new life.. no drugs, no depression, maybe even get a new boyfriend. So i came with a pretty positive attitude, well the year went by and not one person liked me that way so i decided that hey i dont need a boyfriend . Besides school was almost over ...i told my self i was not going to get involved with anyone untill collage.Well thats were the year started changing. this is my last year of high school and the first quarter has bearly ended and there are two people that i know of that like me. Not to mention that i like about... 4 guys. So now i have to decide which one i like best and try to figure out wether or not he likes me.why did all of these people come at once? why cant the feelings be spread out. i hate making decicions... well thats about it .. basically life was going good untill i met a couple of great guys.. but hey life would be worse without them

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well, today i went to go see a movie with my friends.... Jackass
But thats not really what i want to talk about. well not that i am talking im just writing what i feel..
today i started thinking..about people
people are really hard to figure out i mean one minnet you think you know what someone is thinking about you and the next they through you off
Im not going to mention any names but sometimes i just dont know. then you go and try to talk to the person, you know try to see if you can fix things and it only makes things worse. Sometimes i wonder what it would be like if every one just said the way they felt all the time... no lieing no trying to hold back.. it would make life a lot eaiser if we just knew what people were thinking.
i know that was kind of hard to understand but thats just the way life is you never know what to think
god im really bad at this writing my feelings down thing
so i will let you go

hello