hmm well it seems there has been a lot goign on while i was away camping all i can say is that things need to be settled and that there is no point in lying or bending the truth because there comes a point where no one beleives a word you say.. on a liter note i went wake boarding and actually did very good im happy and proud.. well i get to go shopping tomarrow fun fun fun....i have been having so much fun with michael lately it has been non stop laughtergod i love just hanging out with him well i guess thats all i have to say for now.. i would like to ssy though that alley's post or chatter box post was rather funny.... and thats all im saying
words of wisdom: live your life the way you want to not the way someone tells you...

lyrics of post:(havent done that before... lets try) you don't remember me but i remember you
i lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
and dream i do...

i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me

have you forgotten all i know
and all we had?
you saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand
i knew you loved me then

i look in the mirror and see your face
if i look deep enough
so many things inside that are just like you are taking over

well yes i am posting i dont think i have posted once in like 4 months besides the little chatterbox shit thing. well i have had a crazy ass past 4 months like from almost getting shot, getting in fight i should have never been in and running from the police countless times. but there has also been fun things going on like when me and joey got the whole lompoc pd on my car or when me tim ricky and crystal get fucking busted for throwing shopping carts well only me and tim get that ticket crystal was getting in trouble for pissing in public..haha Oh yeha and jeebus that post it should stay up because it is just one of those things that just need to be said like what taryn said about ericka. i dont see what the big fucking deal is wow you talked shit about someone heaven fucking for bid u talk shit i forgot how if u say something every offended n e in what use to be a good group a friends i forgot how u can talk shit about someones mom and take that beyond shit talking but the moment you say something about someones so called "love of their life" when if you really think about that is the lamest thing someone can say when they have never even been out of fucking lompoc why is someone going to kill themself over some breezy when guess what there is going to be others. or why is someone going to break off a fucking friendship over some goochmuncher who fuck just needs to get over it and stop calling the fucking fono. or let some dog faced gremlin come between you and ur best friend for 7 years always put bros before some ho i guess alot of people forgot that even after we lost jaosn to becky, me to jessica, tim to xandie, steve-o to ericka, norling to ericka, smiley to norling, dan to angela ricky to crystal, joey to sarah"HAHAHA" i guess the only one who never did that even when he had the invy of all man by going out with taryn was jeebus he never once punked out on no one JEEBUS THAT IS WHY YOU ARE OUT SAVIOR well i better end this shit up i have to be on base in about 30 minutes and i haven't even took a shower yet so yeha i am out of lompoc in less then a week i have tried to kick with all the old homies but there has been a few who have been scaried of something and have not and when tried have always had somethign to do but guess what i am over it.
words from a wise man: we all know you like to get stuffed like a turkey at thanksgiving and get worked like a russian lolita whore in the red light distric but thnxs for the reminder.

well im sitting here listening to led zepplin waiting, just waiting for what you may ask well you will never know ha ha anyway i get to go capming tomarrow that should be fun it would be a lot better if someone would join me so there is now an official invitation to anyone that wants to join well not really but it would be a nice thought wouldnt it? do you ever feel like you really wan to do somthing but are forced to wait while some other person stuffs his face with oil and fat... well thats my life at the current moment. othere then what is goign on at the moment my life is much better then what it was a while ago i had a good time playing or rather joining in a little "war" a couple of days ago... yah always fun to hang out with poeple you like. well im leaving now so bye
words of wisdom: please be peter pan...

lets just say i had one of the greatest days ever...
words of wisdom: she will prick her finger on the spindle of a spinning wheel and DIE

fuck you taryn, no one is telling you to read this.. the same goes for anyone else that thinks that way.
words of wisdom: Halloween yay!

do you ever feel like you were ment to be someone else or that you know what you want to be like but for some reason you cant.. its like this wall thats holding you back, and with every atempt you make the wall pushes you farther from your goal... well i can say i feel that way and you know what ive felt that way for the past 2 years .. yes it has been 2 years since i my first step into this shit hole known as lompoc... i came i made friends and then lost them now wether it was my fault or not i couldnt give a shit all i know is that im fucking sick and tired of wasting my time and life thinking about how to make things better when they dont even fuckin care.. im tired of doing everythign for one person.. i just cant wait till i leave i know its going to be in a while, once my dad gets back from iraq .. but man im counting the days.. counting the days were i can go back to being my self and having a great time with life going back to a place where poeple could care less about what you believe in or the way you look, back to were peolpe are real not this he said she said shit.. and i mean my dads in fuckin iraq and he understands me better then most people, for somone that i see like twice a year hes probably the closest person to me right now.. the whole time ive been here ive been trying to please everyone but me, its like my life isnt mine...
words of wisdom: waiting, wanting, never having what i should of had