Munch munch munch..mmmm bracelets taste good. Now I suppose it would not be wise to ask why I am "munching" on my bracelets but I guess it would not be wise to be doing it in the first place. My mind does not make sense, just when I think this is the greatest feeling when I think that my mind has all the freedom to explore and expend I come up with shit like that. *sigh* life is never in my favor, but then again it is never in anyone's favor. People can be quick to turn there backs on you when it favors them most so why not life? But what is life, its not like a person that gets mad at you, I would say its more like, more like a feeling. You never think of life until things go wrong, or things are great "when things go good they go great" why is that. And I mean what the hell is this bullshit spewing out of my head. Sometimes I wish I could stop my mind from thinking, for just one minute do nothing, truly do nothing, not think , not breath...Not anything
words of wisdom: you didn't even say goodbye

so this is me... 

I would die for you,I would die for you,I've been dying just to feel you by my side, to know that you're mine.I would cry for you,I would cry for you,I will wash away your pain with all my tears, and drown your fear.
I will pray for you,I will pray for you,I would sell my soul for some thing pure and true, someone like you.See your face every place that I walk in,Hear your voice every time I’m talking.You will believe in me,And I will never be ignored.
I would burn for you,Feel pain for you,I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart,And tear it apart.
I would lie for you,Beg and steal for you,I would crawl on hands and knees until you see,You're just like me.
Violate all my love that I'm missing,Throw away all the pain that I'm living.You will believe in me,And I can never be ignored.
I would die for you,
I would kill for you,
I would steal for you,
I'd do time for you.
I would wait for you.
I'd make room for you.
I'd sail ships for you to be close to you,
To be a part of you,
'cause I believe in you.
I believe in you,I would die for you.

Am I obsessed, maybe

So first of all I'm wondering why anyone would take the time to take me off their blogger so that I could no longer post... Makes me wonder. Ok next topic of business. I would never do anything to intentionally hurt anyone, well unless you were some bitch I didn't like, but anyway, yah I would never do anything on purpose to hurt someone, especially if I know what would hurt them. Sometimes things are just meant to happen like you know, your just waiting for it. *sigh* things are really hard to explain without going into detail, its just you know that even though sometimes people may not show it you know they really do care, you hope they do. Take me for example, I've been putting up with a lot of crap lately and I wondered why, but there had to have been a reason and there was a good one, but know that reason is gone. Even though I didn't show it I did care and still do. People know when others are thinking about them, someday you'll realize it.
words of wisdom: Happy 17th

Doom3.

Sometimes things just aren't what they seem to be. Just when you think all is well people make you realize everything you are doing is all wrong. Not that they tell you that to your face but you realize that what you are doing is not helping any situation, what you are doing is getting you no ware. I love the way I come to these conclusions just when I think im doing everything I can to make things work, but what am I making them work for, who am I making them work for....him, me? These are all great questions, great questions that I don't have the answers to. " They say freak when your singled out." Why do I feel this way? The more time that goes by the more I feel like this, like I just don't belong here. Sure ill have my good things when I love everything. Then I have those bad days, when I have to stand back and analyze what im really donning, who im trying to fool. Who am I trying to fool, me, am I trying to tell myself that I do fit in with all these people. I know I don't, they know I don't, all I do is stand out still I keep coming back. Why?